Kim Taeyeon. A simple performance by you has the ability to blow me away. A single word you speak can cause my heart to speed up. A single smile, a single laugh, a single gesture can cause me to go insane. Kim Taeyeon, if only I could express how much you affected my life. I can’t imagine my life if I hadn’t stumbled across a simple video of one of SNSD’s music videos. I can’t imagine my life if I hadn’t seen you in that music video. I can’t image my life if I hadn’t curiously Googled your name and read an article on you. Ever since that article, you’ve been my hero. I become hurt when people tell me I’m not a true fan of you, and this is all just a phase. I can’t control my anger when things like that pop up. Why would people even think I would only think these things because this is a “phase.” This is not just a phase, it’s a turning point that I’ve come upon. I would call you my ultimate bias, or my supreme, but I think you’ve surpassed those titles. You’re not only my “ultimate bias,” but you are also my hero. People ask me how you can be my hero if I’ve never seen you in person, or spoken to you in person. Does that matter? I really don’t think so. You’re my hero, and you saved me from myself. Oh the burden I must have given everyone in my life until I stumbled across you. I can’t imagine my future without SNSD in it. You all were the ones who saved me and kept me alive, and you, Taeyeon, showed me that life is worth living. All of the years you practiced and worked until you got to where you are today; it was worth it, wasn’t it? Since you worked so hard in getting where you are now, I can work hard as well and fulfill my dream to keep every one happy. I have been called selfless, but I can’t help it, really. Ever since I changed, I can only think of others before myself. I have to thank you for shining that light in my face. I don’t know how many times I’ve been called “strange” for thinking this about you and myself, but I always come back to the thought that I need to believe what I want to believe. Am I taking this too seriously? Has this whole “bias” thing gone to my head? No. I believe it’s true. I wish I could express myself openly, but the scars will not heal. The way you cried during this song. The way you smile at the end. I got the reassuring feeling that everything will be okay, eventually. I have aged and met new friends along this path. New friends that are willing to listen and stay by my side. I couldn’t have even taken this path without you, Kim Taeyeon. I wish I could give you the letter I wrote the day I made the decision to stay. But for now, my admiration for you will continue to grow, and I will continue to look up at you as my hero.